#Stronger Than the Cookie; Saying Goodbye to My 2X Clothes!

container of iced sugar cookies

The conventional wisdom about clothes and weight loss is, to get rid of those clothes that no longer fit, so that you are tempted to grow back into them.

I understand that to a point, but I have pretty cheap genes (not cheap jeans, but maybe those too). I am not a packrat by any means, but I hate to throw something away that is still in good condition, or might be needed again.

The obvious solution of course is to give those clothes away. Someone can use them, why hoard them in a box or a bag in your closet? Yet, ladies especially, how many times have you saved a dress or other item of clothing because it’s a) a special memory (I confess, I still have the robe I wore for my college graduation and I have all three hoods) b) it might come back into style and c) if I just lose ten pounds it will fit!

Pretty sure no one who has intentionally lost weight wants to grow back into those old clothes, but I have saved extra large size clothes out of financial guilt.

My situation is a bit different now. In retirement, in my retirement home, I have pledged to myself to not keep more clothes than will fit in my dresser, my closet and one tote for off season clothes.

Picture of clothes hanging in a woman's closet
That’s about the size of it.

In addition I have two winter coats and two clergy robes (one that will soon fit, YAY!) and four costume dresses and assorted tunics, belts and veils, which I don for in character biblical storytelling skits. Some of those fit in a small closet at the top of the steps that also contains a metal shelving unit, an ironing board and my walker from my knee replacement days, that I hope to not need anytime soon.

Status update:

As of this writing, I am down 29 pounds. It is not a fast process, and I recently hit a strange plateau where my weight went up and down so often it looked like a sewing machine zig-zag stitch on my weight graph.

For the most part, I have maintained a 1200 calorie a day total. And I walk the dog three times a day. I still love chocolate and hate exercise. Hmm! I should put that on a tee shirt. My last cookie or chocolate candy was June 16th or there about.

Picture of a bushel bsket with a variety of fruit and vegetables, surrounded by other fruits and vegetables in the background
Photo by John Lambeth from Pexels

Yet, I have not felt deprived. I have worked hard to vary what I eat so that I don’t get bored. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I am eating fruits and vegetables 3-5 times a day. I recently shared this with a friend and she did not believe me, thought I was making it up.

She wasn’t being mean, she knows I do not like fruit all that much. She has said to me on more than one occasion, ‘If you had been in Eden, we would not have had a problem, because you don’t eat fruit!’ But I have assured her each time, that she was wrong, there probably would have been a chocolate chip cookie tree, and we would still be in the same boat; out of Eden.

Back to my clothes:
I don’t remember when I first noticed that my clothes were getting baggy, but it was probably at least two months in. I did not rush out and buy new clothes (cheap genes, remember?) But one day, I saw a skirt that caught my eyes. I used to live in skirts, but haven’t worn them in 8 or 9 years. I bought it and found myself thinking that it was time to go shopping for skirts.

I realized that my 2x jeans were too baggy and decided to shop for some 1x jeans. I found a pair in the bottom of my dresser, that I didn’t realize I had. I am glad I found them before I bought more, because they too were baggy. Yay! The funniest discovery among my old clothes was a pair of size 14 dress pants. When I held them up to myself before trying them on, I marveled that they dragged on the floor. Why on earth would I have bought pants that were too long? I didn’t. But I am 70 and have apparently lost 3 inches in height.

Picture of an old typewrier with the word "Goals" printed on the paper in the typewriter carriage
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Short Term Goals

Right now, my goal is to lose 11 more pounds. That won’t put me very low on the BMI index, and may still put me in the overweight category, but I think it will be okay. My goal has never been to be skinny, just healthy. That will give me a 40 pound weight loss and at that point, I think putting my energy into maintaining the loss will be important. After all, I have succeeded at least 4 times in my adult life in losing this much weight. I have not yet succeeded in keeping it off; until now.

I know that I will need to be careful and thoughtful about my food choices and level of activity, but I also feel that I have learned a lot, about myself, about food. I feel like I am poised for success. I anticipate that I will add 300-400 calories to my daily intake and continue to explore other aspects of healthy living. (I hate exercise, remember?)

There is a good chance that I may meet my goal by mid-December. But you can never tell when there is a plateau around the corner. And something else is around the corner too, Thanksgiving and Christmas. That calls for careful choices. I am not obsessive compulsive, but I already know what I want to have for Thanksgiving Dinner and what I am willing to pass up. As much as I hate exercise, I love carbs, I do! I can skip homemade rolls (I love homemade rolls and love to make them) and even skip the pumpkin pie. But turkey, my mom’s oyster dressing and cranberry sauce and some kind of green vegetable will be on my plate.

Picture of cranberry bread, with one slice on the plate
Cranberry Orange Nut Bread

What About Christmas Cookies?

My husband is an amazing man. He can eat one cookie, and share it with the dog! I keep telling Sheba I don’t share, and I still like my cookies to have friends. But there are other carbohydrates I would rather enjoy, so I am hoping to make some mini loaves of cranberry bread and cranberry orange scones for the freezer. My big will power question will be, can I make cookies and not eat them? Making raisin-filled cookies for my husband is a simple act of love. I don’t like them, they don’t tempt me. But beyond that I may have to figure out why I think I need to make cookies in the first place. Not there yet.

Ongoing Struggles and learning:

As much progress as I have made with my weight, I still trip over the same mistakes. I still eat too fast. I have figured out the clue to fix that, but haven’t mastered it yet. What is that clue? PUT DOWN THAT FORK! I have spent much of my life confusing my fork for a shovel. I am trying to consciously remember to put my fork down in between bites. I succeed about half the time. That is still progress.

Picture of a banquet table with place settings
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I do not drink enough. I like hot drinks to be hot, and cold drinks to be ice cold. I know that I need to be drinking more, but I get caught up in what I am doing and forget to stop and get a drink. When I write, or when I am working, I can get laser focused on my task, even though I am generally easily distracted. So remembering to get up and refresh my drink or walk around the room or up some steps just is not on my radar.

Because I am eating many foods I normally would, and some foods that I like but had avoided, I don’t think I have ever felt like this was a diet. My focus has been on healthy eating and protecting myself from the possibility of diabetes or cardiac issues. Eating cookies won’t make you diabetic, but I have had risk factors for years. So all this work goes to eliminating at least one risk factor.

In addition to some new clothes and forcing myself to bag up the things that are in good condition to give away, there have been other fun discoveries. I have collar bones! Who knew? But there they are in the mirror. I have a waist line! Wow! I could probably take darts or tucks in my tee shirts! I feel pretty! Being overweight is not necessarily a barrier to a good self image for everyone. But I can tell you it has been a long time since I have felt pretty or liked who I saw in the mirror. Color me grateful!

The journey continues, so I will continue to let you know how it is going. I am still following a specific plan, but my writing is not about getting you to do what I am doing. It is simply to share the journey in the hopes that you might see yourself in my words and experiences, and find hope here too, and laughter. Always, laughter.

Not holding back the tide!


Copyright 2020 Michele Somerville, The Beach Girl Chronicles and https://msomervillesite.WordPress.com

Published by msomerville2014

About: Michele Somerville is a wife, mother, stepmother, grandmother, sister, aunt, cousin and friend. She lives with her husband and their dog Sheba. Sheba is their fourth rescue dog in 30 years. She is a retired ordained United Methodist Elder and serves two churches part-time in North Central Pennsylvania. She obtained her Bachelors’ Degree in 1999 from Mansfield University and her Master of Divinity in 2004 and Doctor of Ministry in 2016, both from Colgate Rochester Crozer Divinity School in Rochester, New York. My Doctor of Ministry Thesis was:” Prophetic Words of Grace: Biblical Storytelling in the Local Church.” Michele began writing and performing character monologues for worship in 2008. She began by asking the question about nameless characters in the Bible, “What would they say if they could speak for themselves?” and then using her theological education and experience of the human condition to attempt an answer that is both academic and creative. Much of what you will read here are memories from growing up in a tourist town, in a bar, in the 1960’s, shaggy dog stories about our rescue dogs, life in a small town, and stories of faith and hope. Throughout her life she has lived in many states, including small towns, large towns and cities. She lived in Rota, Spain, for nine challenging months. Despite all the places she have lived since moving away from home in 1970,Michele is at the heart of all things Jack and Maggie’s daughter, and a beach girl from Onset, Massachusetts.

18 thoughts on “#Stronger Than the Cookie; Saying Goodbye to My 2X Clothes!

  1. Hi Michele – congrats on the 29lb weight loss – that is a significant achievement. I managed to lose about 12lbs after finishing work and would like to lose a few more – I think the slimmer we are, the easier it is to exercise and to eat sensibly to stay that way. I’m not sure how to kick off those last few lbs, but I think it boils down to energy in/ energy out – so eating sensibly and moving regularly. Easier to do now that my time is my own.
    Enjoy feeling pretty – you deserve it – and buy a new top to show off those collar bones!


  2. Congratulations on the significant accomplishment, Michele! I am the same as you – cheap! Maybe frugal is a better word to describe us. I have held onto many clothes for sentimental reasons or because I am not sure I want to get rid of it yet. Shirts I got from marathons are especially hard to donate. When I used to teach, I would donate many race shirts to the thrift shop in town, only to see them being worn by students.

    I too need to SLOW DOWN when I eat. I am going to work on conversing more with Bill at mealtimes. He is quiet by nature, so he should LOVE that! 😉


  3. Congratulations, Michele, on your significant achievement! With some preparation and careful choices, you’ll be able to enjoy the holidays and staying on track with your weight goals. Regarding exercise, would it help to think of it as movement?


  4. Thanks very much Natalie, that might do it. I want to check out chair yoga and Tai Chi, not sure if I could do either, but those are the movements that interest me the most. Our library has offered chair yoga for quite a while, but of course, not during COVID. But I would think I could find both on Youtube. Preparation is the name of the game for me. Sometimes I tweak my choices at the last minute so I can stay in my calorie limit. But I make a game out of meal planning and choices. Nerdy? Maybe. have a good week. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment nd thank you for those affirming words.


  5. Wow Michele, congrats on the weight loss!! That is quite an achievement. Well done. Not easy. Yes, I can definitely attest to the fact that fruit and veggies are the way to go… both in achieving good health but also keeping a healthy weight.

    I agree that movement can replace the thought of exercise…. One can move to music, not even dance, walk a bit more than before, stretch to an online beginners yoga etc. Also another tip that I find works well for me, is to drink about 6 glasses of water a day and before a meal. That way one feels full and stays hydrated. I often add some chia seeds to my water. Chia seeds are full of omega 3s, keep your body well hydrated and make you feel full, and therefore eat less!

    Holidays are tough times .. don’t be too hard on yourself though 🙂 If you slip off the path, just get right back on it.



    1. Thanks very much. When did you start blogging? The pictures are great. I need to look at a map of India, I confess to being ignorant about Indian geogrpaphy. Busy weekend, but I will take a second look soon. Thanks for stopping by and reading some posts. Just wondering, how did you happen upon my blog?

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  6. Hi Michele, I also admit I have kept a few items for sentimental reasons. I am a work in progress on that one. “Storytelling skits” sounds like fun. Congratulations on your weight loss. Your conversation on “Eden” made me smile. Your post resonates with many of us. Me included. I was very overweight as a teenager and I have found managing weight, challenging all my life. Good point on “progress.” I am rooting for you, Michele. Thank you for sharing.🙂

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    1. Thanks very much Erica/Erika. I seem to be back in one of those zig-zag phases up and down several ounces to a pound, back and forth. But it is okay. I have yet to hit a hard plateau. I got a new pair of dress pants this week a 14W (down from 2x) so I am happy about that. Enjoying shopping for some new clothes. Trying to gradually replace my other clothes and trying to figure out what I like. I even ate my first ever Brussel sprouts the other night (oven roasted) and they were not bad. ! have a good Thanksgiving (oops, when is Thanksgiving celebrated in BC? )

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      1. Thank you! I am pretty sure I could not have eaten them boiled, even butter would not be enough to redeem them! ha! Most of the storytelling that I do is “biblical” Character monolgues, but I have poured over writings about the Mayflower, and wrote and presented a monologue as one of the passengers from the Mayflower. It was pretty historically rooted and I am a bit nerdy, so wasn’t sure how it would fly with the flock. Sometime in the next few weeks I will write about my Biblical Storytelling characters. I have a title for the post, but most of it is just in my head. Blessings, Michele

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  7. Hi Michele, I’m a bit late to the party, but here I am. I always look forward to reading your posts, even if I don’t manage to get a comment written. Congratulations on your weight loss! I don’t have a weight problem and have never really experienced this. If I feel like my jeans or skirts are getting a bit tight I cut back a bit on high carb food like bread (which I’ve actually more or less given up now). I’m a reformed sugarholic, having given up sweets and chocolate earlier this year. I’m lucky, I don’t have a problem with my weight. But there are plenty of people who do, including my husband – and because of my husband’s fight with his weight I understand what you’re going through. And there’s nothing better than feeling good with yourself, and feeling pretty and can fit into tailored clothes. Well done again, and may you have the strength to maintain your new weight! Have a lovely weekend, Michele.

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    1. Hi Cheryl, I am always glad to hear from you and read your posts too. Thank you for taking the time to write. I talked with my dr. the other day and she said that sugar can affect your taste buds. Don’t know why that surprised me, b ut it did. However, one of the many added benefits of my reformed eating habits is I notice that food tastes better, delicious even, including simple things like apples or string cheese. I will reset my goal to anaother 10 pounds, when the scale gets off its current up and down patter. Up 8 ounces, down 3, ad nauseum. Then I hit a spurt where I lose 3-4 pounds in fairly rapid succession. Still sticking to my plan, 1200 calories, various proteins, carbs and some fat. Thank you so much for your encouragemetn. I hope to land in a comfortable size 12, maybe 10, but no lower. That will be plenty for me.

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      1. Hang in there, Michele! I know what you mean about taste changing. I can now walk past the chocolate aisle in the supermarket and don’t feel that longing to buy each and every one, but in the fruit (and vegetable) aisle, I want everything I see! It’s never too late to change ourselves for the better, and it’s so nice when we make an effort and get results.

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  8. Hi Michele, great to see you linking up for my Monday #LifeThisWeek. I hope you continue to post and share along with adding your comment to my post. I so understand what you are doing. I got very overweight (eating to stuff down emotions) and then, over time thanks to being unwell …and then eventually with oral cancer my weight dropped off ….so much so that I had not weighed what I was then since?? However, since the lowest in 2017-18 I have added some weight but stay reasonably comfortable and because I have limited eating choices, I keep small treats on my menu. I think we all do this weight/eating thing in a way to suit us.

    Thank you for linking up for #lifethisweek on my blog. Next week it’s the final week for 2020. I have appreciated the bloggers who visit regularly to link up and to comment on my post as well. Next Week: 51/51 Own Choice. 21.12.2020
    #LifeThisWeek Returns on Monday 4 January 2021. May the festive season be kind to you and yours. Denyse.


    1. Thanks very much Denyse, I have wanted to revisit your site to participate but have dragged my feet. I still work (serve) part time even though I am retired, so every week is a balancing act. I try to read, write and post the beginning of the week and focus on writing for work the end of the week. Things are not always so neat. I have written several posts about my weight loss journey, but intentionally not said anything specific about my program, beyond general things (daily calories, for instance). I know that Weight Loss solutions are not a one size fits all and my hope in writing about this part of my life is that there will be something encouraging and helpful to others who share this up and down battle. I may have some questions moving forward, I do not always get the technology, and I have been a little lazy about finishing up a course that might help me (like Luke Skywalker in Star Wars, rushing off to the city in the clouds to help his friends, without finishing his training as a Jedi)! In addition to sharing and commenting on your post, I should indicate #lifethisweek on my post before sharing it, right? and I notice that folks often include that in their comments. I am sure I will have other questions. Thanks for the welcome and your comments on my post. Blessings, Michele

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